Journal entry 3-Wise Circumstances 

The last two days was the emotional combination of sadness and anger as I hid in poker face until yesterday. I saw a group of two, the person I like a little bit and a other laughing like fool usually. The pair was just getting through the day as I walk alone observant of the circumstances as I worked and peeked with my little eye. The manager put me in another area without telling me the reason, leading me to think there was a motive behind when they tell they are trying to help ones production goals. I don’t believe and trust when they say that when the motive could be to crumble you down and keep the ones they like. Who I am is what I am, a slient and distant man of less interaction to cause smiles and the heating tongues of backtalk of ones character. I shouldn’t be more than dandy with these fools laughing endlessly to be the apple of mangers’ eye when they don’t really meet their production goals. So I went to human resource to clarify and tell what was my situation in order to secure my position. I had been written up before but now it’s clean in my record. Yet mangers wonder about my work ethic and the fighting spirit just to stay the way like we supposed to do no matter how unrealistic, difficult and demanding the situation was and is. Yesterday, it was a good day as I was in my zone in the arena they put me in as they come check on me and clarify about my situation once after they learned I reported on them. In my new area, I doubt it’s for the weekend until they put me back to the old area, the laughing fool was my co partner for the day as I kept silent and unplugged my heart to be a friend. I was working in my zone and watching him with my side eyes as he acting as a friend and guessing who I am when I was hard to open up. I totally shutdown all day, breaking smile out of poker face while reminiscing the funny moments and remembering the old qualities I had just like the laughing fool. 

Even a fool, when he holdeth his peace, is counted wise: and he that shutteth his lips is esteemed a man of understanding. -Proverbs 17:28

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